In my sleep, my youngest daughter's teacher thought she was too close and dependent on her family and that she needed to expand her circle, so she had the state take temporary custody of her.(I know, it's not feasible, but it was just a dream). She left on a Friday. In my dream, I tried to tell myself that she was having fun over the weekend and I would see her soon, but my nervousness turned to fear. By Monday I was frantic to see her. I went to the elementary school. I roamed the halls hoping to catch a glimpse of her. I asked someone if I could see her. I called my husband and told him that this was doing more harm than good. He agreed and we planned on getting an attorney. It was such a weird frenzy of fear, and feeling cheated. I had such anticipation of seeing her and holding her in my arms. If only it were that easy. I awoke to reality and realized I wouldn't get to see her at all. She's been gone for 8 months. It's not getting any easier.
It is painful enough to not have her with me, these dreams in the night are torturous.
Even though my nerves were shaken, I had to get to work. I managed to stay preoccupied with busy-ness. Now that I'm home and I've fed the kids, I'm off to my sewing room. It's her bedroom, and I love being there.
Red was her favorite color, though her room was actually quite yellow. I'm working on a quilt to cover her bed with and it has the red and a bit of yellow. I'm hopeful it will turn out, it is my first piecework snowball quilt, but I have a lot of sewing experience. These are the red fabrics I'm using: Amy Butler Cherry Red Lotus Flower and Full Moon Polka Dot. I've got two others, too that I'll share when I get some pictures of what I'm working on. Aren't they cool?