That's me 20 years ago (I was 19 then). No, not the one smoking, the young girl in the middle. A friend sent this picture to me last month. That was the half-way point (time-wise) to where I am now. I can't say that I knew I'd be here, but I'm not that surprised either. The amount of experiences and influences I have known since then have grown exponentially. The world has gotten bigger and smaller at the same time.
Good bye 2007 / Hello 2008. In know that this transition is only on paper (replace all calendars), but it is symbol enough to remind me that we are moving forward. The introduction of cancer to my life in July of 2007 was a catalyst to some changes in me. Some changes very trivial, some more momentous, some I’m not ready to address. It is an unwelcome visitor that I have learned to live with, but I am working daily to get rid of. All the while I am doing my best not to let my dear daughter see my fear of the monster or see it through my eyes. She thinks it is a mere annoyance and once she does all that she is told to do by the doctors, she will be rid of it. I want to buy into that too. It changes my outlook. Every smile is much more precious (I didn't know it could be). Every laugh is so much more of a release (I'm really enjoying the Arrested Development series I got from Netflix - thanks for the tip Quinns)! It's like I have a new heightened awareness. So bring on 2008!